Sometimes I really don't like myself, still stuck in the past.
In the past, he will Skype with me so long,
until like 4am morning still don't feel like want off.
He will always find topics to talk with me, look at me.
But now, because he play game when we Skype, and nothing to say,
so I feel like he changed.
Everyday I have been looking forward to... Skype with him at night.
I think because I care too much, I will emo and get hurt.
10/9/14, This day was a nightmare..
This day we are in the fight all day long..
He told me he went to Sunway Lagoon,
after that until night didn't send me message at all.
Yeah you're not my dog, no need report report report,
because I worried about you, want to know what you doing..
After this, I think about us.
We are not suitable, you're too mature for me,
you can be independent, but for me im not.
I am that kind of girl who will dependent on you,
always want you to accompany.
And I'm always childish I know,
jealous because you go out with your female friend.
In that night, I decided to break up with you,
because this is the only things I can do,
I think that after we break up your life will be better,
don't have argue anymore.
Then facebook relationship status I changed to single.
I'm sorry, I know that night I hurt you so much.
Then you straight come my house,
that is the first time, I saw you cried.
When I saw you cried, I cried...
Then you want to leave, I hold your hand,
but I can't hold, and you leave.
Until that moment, I can feel that...
you really leave me and I'm so sad so hurt.
The next day, he Whatsapp me when I'm working.
but I had deleted my Whatsapp so I can't see the message,
then you called me, until that day we together back.
After this incident, I seriously think clearly,
he love me so much and I love him so much,
thats so hard to find someone will love each other.
Why I don't cherish but I make problem,
I hurt him and hurt myself.
If I keep doing this he will leave me.
So sorry pig, I will be a better Claire :')
I will cherish every moment to stay with you,
I love you so so much!!!
Our selfies~ <3
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