Claire's story

I still not mature enough yet?  Everyday I have to live unhappy, I have tried to suppress my own immaturity, Are learning to put myself forward to become more mature. But failed, you told me you would with me through this phrase, thank you! But my heart tears everyday, that is not your fault, is my own problem . That feeling.. I really choose to give up a lot of times, This is the only time of heartache until I despair. Today he started his new job, The work seems to be even busier than before, Saturday and Sunday have to work, Naturally you have no time to accompany me.. Hope I can used to it faster. His new job is have to take care of promoters, don't know why I'm jealous I'm emo haiz... Don't want to care already. Today you told me Tuesday we cannot celebrate our first anniversary, I was really disappointed. You too mature, inconsiderate and stubborn, what I said to you you won...

Sometimes I really don't like myself, still stuck in the past. In the past, he will Skype with me so long, until like 4am morning still don't feel like want off. He will always find topics to talk with me, look at me. But now, because he play game when we Skype, and nothing to say, so I feel like he changed. Everyday I have been looking forward to... Skype with him at night. I think because I care too much, I will emo and get hurt. 10/9/14, This day was a nightmare.. This day we are in the fight all day long.. He told me he went to Sunway Lagoon, after that until night didn't send me message at all. Yeah you're not my dog, no need report report report, because I worried about you, want to know what you doing.. After this, I think about us. We are not suitable, you're too mature for me, you can be independent, but for me im not. I am that kind of girl who will dependent on you, always want you...

Tuesday (19/8) 1am,  you leave Malaysia, went to South Korea.. Attended The World Taekwondo Hanmadang 2014.. Until Monday (25/8) come back Malaysia.. 1 week is so long for me, When the first and second day we still can Whatsapp,  because there have wifi.. But started from third day, he started busy, always at outdoor, he so pity so tired... I can wait for you come back to me.. But recently I'm so stress, about the driving final test..  At next week Wednesday.. Lack of confidence, afraid will fail.. Then need to pay again and again... I keep thinking everyday, headache.. I really hope someone can stay with me, talk with me... And today is Friday, T.G.I.F? No feeling.. because without you... Saturday.. Sunday.. same.. In these two days, I will miss you so so much, Cause everytime we go dating in these two days.. This picture was last week Saturday we took together one.. Th...

Have to admit that our lives have changed, You now have to work so I can no longer rely on you. But easier said than done.  Today is the third day you go to work I'm still not used to, You work from morning to night,  we only have three hours of chat time. Recently, a few days vacation and I feel like want spend it with you, but your work finish at night, I am not willing to let you be so tired, so I choose not to. I know I'm selfish, always wanted you to accompany me to chat, dating with me. Life without you, I lost the meaning of life. Everyday play game, repeat and repeat... Now I think single more happy than in relationship. Since I'm in love, I become very irritable. Jealous, quarrel... a lot of things happen. Sometimes cry until fall asleep, sometimes very angry,  and the same problem occurs repeated.  I'm really tired in love, I'm not tried to control you, I just don't ...

Recently have no time to update my blog, to put it bluntly is lazy. Two consecutive weeks are busy, last last week Friday was Jewelry Exhibition started, until Monday ended. Last Friday was Baby Exhibition, Friday until Sunday, be a cashier, and need to stand whole day. :x Finally this week can rest, honestly one moth didn't go to tuition center teach,  now feel like don't want to go, have some strange feeling. Yesterday went to his home to see his cat, so cute. And chat with his two younger sisters. Opps, forget to take pictures with them :x He so busy playing his game in the room :( In fact, he did not know I was bored :/ I will not like someone, don't want disturb him when he was playing game <3 His sisters so nice, give me a lot of candy. After 5pm, we went to Subang there, he have taekwondo class. He so pro, can punch the two woods in same time. So strong my man <3 So...

Today went out with Raymond, he said after today he will very busy... :/ Then we went to Mid Valley around 4pm, he came my house fetch me. When we reach there, we go buy movie tickets.. After buy movie tickets, we go eat Snowflake, feel like long time no eat already.. :3 He ordered one, and get 1 free because the card full chop le... After eat, then he go buy a burger, I go buy popcorn and drinks. We watched " In The Dark ", Ghost movie. Scaryyyyyy.... After watched movie, we went to arcade... Looked at him play the racing game. He met his friend at there, he fetch his friend went to bangsar lrt station. Then we went to Pizza Hut, our dinner.... :3  Time around 10:30pm then he fetch me back home.. Had a nice day..... :3

I did not work this Saturday, so today I went out with Raymond, celebrate my belated birthday :) I like to go out on Saturday, because after Saturday still can rest on Sunday :3 Today he came my house fetch me at 12pm, then we went to Bangsar there, he bring me go Dip n Dip... Nice chocolate.. delicious :3 After eat, then we went to McDonald's to have our lunch xD I eat Mc Chicken, so fullllll... :x He bought a pair of couple key chain... This one is my one... :3 Today he have taekwondo class, we reached there time was late, around 6pm. Then I wait for him at outside, so boring so I take picture... :3 My man so man <3 haha... After he bath then we went to Sunway Pyramid. Someone want to eat sushi ,  so we went to Sakae Sushi.... :3 \ After eat we walked around, then back home.. Feel like want spend more time with dear, DON'T WANT BACK HOME.... :/

Today is Friday, my birthday.. ;) Very good, because there is no work tomorrow :3 I can go out with with Raymond... Celebrate my birthday :3 So sad too, so much argued, I know his feeling, but I also have my thoughts. Although you said a few times, I will not change my mind. So sorry, I can't do it :/ Just now after work was raining, we went to The Baker's Cottage buy cake.. After discount, the price was RM62.. Then went to Sri Petaling lrt station fetch my brother, traffic jam and brother still haven't reach, waiting waiting and waiting.... After that, my mother go buy dinner, waiting waiting and waiting.... In addiction, family argued, feel like no birthday mood, headache also... Until just now night, my dear came my house and give me birthday present. So surprise... so touched.... I cried ...... We talked a lot in the car ... My gifts... <3 Birthday card... ...

Today we went out around 4pm, he said he want go out study... We went to Starbucks at Bangsar Village, there was very quiet.. At there, I play my phone, He prepared his quiz. Selfieeeeee... because I was bored... :x Our hands... Black and White.... xD Time almost like 7pm, we eat our dinner at Delicious. His food, sho nice :3 My food. Arh.... Feel like want try to eat beef, but the taste........ I vowed not to eat beef again... :x But the wedges so nice la :3 After eat, we walked to Dip n Dip, so many people there, so we didn't eat.. Feel so regret now :x Reach home almost 12am....  After bath then go sleep...  Ok... Is time to stop lo.. :3

Today was Thursday, a working day. But after work, I went to Mid Valley with Raymond He came to my house and fetch me, Thursday can went out with dear, feeling special. <3 But raining, sad case.. :x We went to Mid Valley watched movie, watched Captain America: The Winter Soldier. Nice movie...  I like the feeling,  when watching movies and eating popcorn. :3 After watched movie, the time was like 9pm like that, we walked around, then he said go Bangsar eat McDonald's. After eat, 11:00pm he fetch me back home. Tonight flies meaningful.

I waited for this day for a long time ...  Today finally have a date with Raymond <3  We went to Times Square. After reach there, we bought movie tickets,  then we went to Wendy's for lunch, the french fries and burger not bad :3 After lunch, we went to arcade, because he want to play racing game... lol When 2:15pm, we went to cinema and watched movie. We watched Need For Speed in GSC Max. Awh... The cinema so big :o I had no idea all of the car in this movie, just watched and enjoy xD This movie almost 2 hours :o After movie, we walked around at Times Square.. Having a tournament outside the cinema, about the movie Need For Speed one. As long as a person has two tickets will be able to participate. A lot of people look at... He attended, he was really brave -_- After that, we walked to Low Yat. I'm sorry, when we at Low Yat,  In fact, I do it just want you t...