Claire's story

This year is 2015, Year of the Goat. I have entered another stage of life, 21 years old, no longer young. Over the years, I grew a lot, whether at work or in love. Really hope I can become more and more mature. . Chor 1, My selfie... v  the same as in previous years, we went to my grandmother's house. Every year my grandmother will cook vegetarian dishes for us, super delicious! My grandmother <3 See ma father and mother, they act cute! xD Ma sister and me, After that, we went to a relative's house. Chor 2, We went to relative's house again, collect angpaos...  My ootd... Total of the angpao I get in these two days. I spend my night with my family.. We went to Pearl Point there, Restaurant Pat Kin Pat Sun. My dinner, Thai Style Fried Chicken Chop.. How time flies, today is Chor 6, two more days..... have to start work.  D:

I still not mature enough yet?  Everyday I have to live unhappy, I have tried to suppress my own immaturity, Are learning to put myself forward to become more mature. But failed, you told me you would with me through this phrase, thank you! But my heart tears everyday, that is not your fault, is my own problem . That feeling.. I really choose to give up a lot of times, This is the only time of heartache until I despair. Today he started his new job, The work seems to be even busier than before, Saturday and Sunday have to work, Naturally you have no time to accompany me.. Hope I can used to it faster. His new job is have to take care of promoters, don't know why I'm jealous I'm emo haiz... Don't want to care already. Today you told me Tuesday we cannot celebrate our first anniversary, I was really disappointed. You too mature, inconsiderate and stubborn, what I said to you you won...

Sometimes I really don't like myself, still stuck in the past. In the past, he will Skype with me so long, until like 4am morning still don't feel like want off. He will always find topics to talk with me, look at me. But now, because he play game when we Skype, and nothing to say, so I feel like he changed. Everyday I have been looking forward to... Skype with him at night. I think because I care too much, I will emo and get hurt. 10/9/14, This day was a nightmare.. This day we are in the fight all day long.. He told me he went to Sunway Lagoon, after that until night didn't send me message at all. Yeah you're not my dog, no need report report report, because I worried about you, want to know what you doing.. After this, I think about us. We are not suitable, you're too mature for me, you can be independent, but for me im not. I am that kind of girl who will dependent on you, always want you...

Tuesday (19/8) 1am,  you leave Malaysia, went to South Korea.. Attended The World Taekwondo Hanmadang 2014.. Until Monday (25/8) come back Malaysia.. 1 week is so long for me, When the first and second day we still can Whatsapp,  because there have wifi.. But started from third day, he started busy, always at outdoor, he so pity so tired... I can wait for you come back to me.. But recently I'm so stress, about the driving final test..  At next week Wednesday.. Lack of confidence, afraid will fail.. Then need to pay again and again... I keep thinking everyday, headache.. I really hope someone can stay with me, talk with me... And today is Friday, T.G.I.F? No feeling.. because without you... Saturday.. Sunday.. same.. In these two days, I will miss you so so much, Cause everytime we go dating in these two days.. This picture was last week Saturday we took together one.. Th...

Have to admit that our lives have changed, You now have to work so I can no longer rely on you. But easier said than done.  Today is the third day you go to work I'm still not used to, You work from morning to night,  we only have three hours of chat time. Recently, a few days vacation and I feel like want spend it with you, but your work finish at night, I am not willing to let you be so tired, so I choose not to. I know I'm selfish, always wanted you to accompany me to chat, dating with me. Life without you, I lost the meaning of life. Everyday play game, repeat and repeat... Now I think single more happy than in relationship. Since I'm in love, I become very irritable. Jealous, quarrel... a lot of things happen. Sometimes cry until fall asleep, sometimes very angry,  and the same problem occurs repeated.  I'm really tired in love, I'm not tried to control you, I just don't ...

Recently have no time to update my blog, to put it bluntly is lazy. Two consecutive weeks are busy, last last week Friday was Jewelry Exhibition started, until Monday ended. Last Friday was Baby Exhibition, Friday until Sunday, be a cashier, and need to stand whole day. :x Finally this week can rest, honestly one moth didn't go to tuition center teach,  now feel like don't want to go, have some strange feeling. Yesterday went to his home to see his cat, so cute. And chat with his two younger sisters. Opps, forget to take pictures with them :x He so busy playing his game in the room :( In fact, he did not know I was bored :/ I will not like someone, don't want disturb him when he was playing game <3 His sisters so nice, give me a lot of candy. After 5pm, we went to Subang there, he have taekwondo class. He so pro, can punch the two woods in same time. So strong my man <3 So...

Today went out with Raymond, he said after today he will very busy... :/ Then we went to Mid Valley around 4pm, he came my house fetch me. When we reach there, we go buy movie tickets.. After buy movie tickets, we go eat Snowflake, feel like long time no eat already.. :3 He ordered one, and get 1 free because the card full chop le... After eat, then he go buy a burger, I go buy popcorn and drinks. We watched " In The Dark ", Ghost movie. Scaryyyyyy.... After watched movie, we went to arcade... Looked at him play the racing game. He met his friend at there, he fetch his friend went to bangsar lrt station. Then we went to Pizza Hut, our dinner.... :3  Time around 10:30pm then he fetch me back home.. Had a nice day..... :3